Was it worth it bringing up a topic that we were both not ready to talk about?
To begin with, it was meant to be a discussion, a way to talk about our feelings and communicate but communication goes both ways and sometimes, not everyone gets it.
So was it worth it, bringing up a topic we both weren’t ready to talk about, not knowing that they wouldn’t have accepted your feelings and opinions because of how one-sided they were?
Was it worth it ruining something good just to talk about our feelings?
Recently, I expressed a feeling I had; disappointment and hurt — to someone I deeply cared about.
And it was about an extremely sensitive topic for both him and I; money.
What was meant to be a discussion about my feelings turned into an argument that went back and forth about him telling me not to tell him how to spend his money, and me explaining that I wasn’t doing that but rather upset that he was spending his money when he should have been saving up for a specific reason we both knew was important.
We didn’t speak for a week and when we did, he was cold and hostile.
I tried hard to talk to him about it in the next few days so we could fix whatever we had broken and he avoided it and stopped replying my messages after our short conversation.
I think it was worth it. A lot of people say the same because we know what his true colours are but some part of me wishes that I never brought it up at all because then I wouldn’t lose what we had over a conversation about my feelings.
Understanding that communication is essential to every relationship is important but having the ability to apply it in real time is completely different. Everyone can talk about how communication is important but when it’s our turn to communicate our feelings, it’s barbaric and out of line to them.
I wouldn’t call it narcissism or manipulative but rather egoistic and immature. Prideful and narrow-minded. A dreamer but not a doer.
Was it worth it?
Do I regret it?
A little, I miss him but I could do without him.
He was perfect but perhaps he was looking for a way out of this relationship and whatever it was, he took it and ended it.
I think it was worth it because I did us both a favour.