Here’s a story that I never forget, of a time long ago witnessed by yours truly.
I was young, unknowing and at that age, completely clueless of the world around me. As someone who was protected by the world, I sought to discover much on my own only to be taught that this world is not always rainbows and sunshine.
Over a decade ago, I was with family. At the shopping mall just minutes from our house by train, we were roaming around and browsing through shops like little tourists on vacation. There was much shopping to be done.
I stood outside a store, waiting for my parents to come out when I see a little girl, much younger than I was, running out a store. She trips and falls flat on her face. She stays there for a few seconds and looks like she’s going to cry.
Her father comes up to her, stands beside her and without bending down or crouching to be at eye level with her, he only extends his hand down to her with two simple words uttered.
To me, they’re as simple as they can get.
Without another word, the little girl grabs her father’s hand and together, they walk off hand-in-hand.
A simple lesson was taught to her that day.
When life knocks you down, you get back up.
Simple, but effective.
I was taught to be independent from an extremely young age. I was taught to do things on my own without expecting help from anyone else but what about grief and loss?
What should be done to help me get back up on my feet?
Loss is one of the worst things that can happen to anyone because of the underlying meaning behind it.
Loss means forever.
This April, I loss my father in an accident. He died as quickly as it happened, unknowing to me a week before it did that I would be fatherless.
I grieved for months.
Grief helps us cope with loss but what does coping really mean? Is it means of forgetting or accepting?
I questioned that for a long, long time.
Given my work and occupation as a student, I was given a lot of encouragement and love from colleagues and teachers but it wasn’t enough. I wasn’t ready to get back into the field and I wasn’t happy with how things were as opposed to before.
I blamed my unhappiness and failures in the past five months on my father’s death. And I kept doing it because I was unable to be strong and to cope.
How do I get back up on my feet?
Grief and loss turned me into a moody, lifeless person. I once had the world in my eyes and all that was left is now emptiness and sorrow.
I had almost wanted to give up on life, work, school and family.
I prayed for a different outcome in life.
To give and receive, to be given life when one was taken.
In turn, I was taken on this whirlwind of journey with someone who showed me what life truly meant from a different perspective.
What was it about this person who gave me meaning to keep on going, to live as life has offered me and to do best rather than do enough? He showered me with compliments, crude advice, and drove me to insanity before bringing me back down to help me understand that I was strong enough to handle it.
Today, I no longer grief and blame loss for many things.
I realize the control I have over my own life and it was a great portion of it.
When I wake in the morning, instead of feeling anguish and sadness, I’m filled with the drive to do something greater. Instead of expecting hope and happiness to drop onto my lap, I strive for it.
How did I cope with the grief and loss?
I let someone into my life and he pulled me out of my depression state. He showed me his side of the world and I showed him mine.
To be protected from the world, from its losses had made me weak. It had taken my energy and brought me down but one person pulled me back up onto my feet.
Today, I have accomplished much more than I had hoped for in the past score of my life.
With this loss that I had felt, it had made me stronger with the help of someone who made me realize what life was truly about. He, who helped me understand the future and he, who taught me how to think for my own.
He, who helped me grief over loss of family while learning to stand up from it.
If I had to do the same with my children, I would do what my own parents did to me. I would protect them from the world, raise them to be independent and knowledgeable.
Before releasing them into the wild.